Post by ethan on Jan 29, 2010 12:28:20 GMT -5
ETHAN FELIX HAMILTON
HONEY IF YOU STAY, I'LL BE FORGIVEN
[/font][/color]THE CHARACTER[/center]
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character full name ethan felix hamilton
nicknames ham-bone
age 17
grade 11
sex male
full time student or live-in? full time student
playby joe brooks
THESE BRIGHT LIGHTS ALWAYS BLINDED ME
[/font][/color]THE LOOKS[/center]
[/color] caucasion
heritage
height[/color] 5'7
weight[/color] 115
eyes[/color] his eyes are sort of a milk chocolate brown color. they're more round shaped than anything. they give a lot away about what might be going on in his head, but really only if someone looks into them.
hair[/color] ethan has dirty blonde hair that is loose and silky smooth. he keeps it conditioned on orders of bianca.
dressing style[/color] Ethan has about three different styles that he likes to dress in and none of them are really his own. Sometimes Ethan dresses nice and in brand-name clothing so that he can appease his more vain voice, Bianca. Other times Ethan will dress sort of grunge down according to the preferences of his more extreme voice, Lex. Lastly, Ethan can also dress childish at times and this is because Mikey, his childish voice, is telling him to dress that way instead of listening to Bianca or Lex. Ethan doesn't really have a clothing preference himself.
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I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING
[/font][/color]THE PERSONALITY[/center]
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likes
ethan
+ sleep
+ smelling good
+ animals
+ guitar
+ looking at photography
+ anyone who understands
+ mysterious
+ soft hair
+ cold air
+ food of any kind
bianca
+ skittles
+ sunny weather
+ apple-tini
+ shopping
+ judging people
+ romance
+ the smell of vanilla
+ nice hair
lex
+ alcohol
+ social gatherings
+ dares
+ late nights
+ sex
+ lap dances
+ soft skin
+ piercings
mikey
+ disney movies
+ ice cream
+ root beer floats
+ having a good time
+ music
+ other disney fans
+ sexy whispering
dislikes[/color]
ethan
+ being called crazy
+ when bianca is the most prominent voice
+ talking about parents
+ people watching a little too closely
+ not knowing what people are talking about
+ being talked about
+ people nicknaming his penis
+ yellow teeth
+ the smell of new leather
+ people that stare
bianca
+ unstylish people
+ pricks
+ being too hot
+ bitches
+ people who whine too much about their misfortune
+ scratchy skin
+ garlic eaters
+ greasy hair
lex
+ girly girls
+ coffee
+ liars
+ candy
+ being talked about
+ people waiting for love
+ long fingernails
+ musty smells
mikey
+ mean people
+ losing
+ reading
+ work
+ not being able to breath
+ mean people
+ dirty people
+ stds
fears[/color]
+ cars
+ closed in spaces
+ being looked at too much
+ being touched too much
+ talking a lot in public
+ getting too close to people
goals[/color]
+ ethan's greatest goal is to one day not feel like everyone hates him, but is nice to his face
dirty little secret[/color]
+ Ethan has schizophrenia. He wouldn't tell anyone this really unless they were really close to him. He just kind of deals with people thinking he's crazy for talking to himself.
overall personality[/color]
Ethan Hamilton has no idea who he is. He has a mild case of schizophrenia. It's a mixture of paranoid and disorganized and it really shows through in his personality. Ethan can sometimes appear to get angry for no apparent reason. He can't help that, it's just a sudden thing. Pretty much all the time Ethan is feeling anxious, paranoid, or out of control. There are certain times when Ethan will argue when it's not even something he should be arguing over. Sometimes Ethan experiences this thing called "the flat effect" where he will randomly appear void of emotions. Those moments have been rare, but since his parents died have been happening more often. He has a tendency to laugh out of place at things that weren't meant to be laughed at. His thought jump a lot and go back and forth. Sometimes when he speaks it is not understandable, but he tries to control that stuff.
There are three voices that are prominent in Ethan's head. Most of the time they cause him to get in a lot of trouble. Ethan has Bianca, the high maintenance female voice who is all into the latest fashions; Lex, the more rebellious kind of sex driven male voice that always seems to disagree with Bianca; and Mikey, the childish voice who constantly just wants Ethan to have fun and be a kid again like he used to be. These voices are not real people, though to Ethan they are. Ethan will refer to these voices as if they are standing right next to him. He will say what they want him to say and he pretty much feels out of control of his life because they run just about every aspect of it. Ethan doesn't believe that makes him crazy and he will get greatly offended at anyone who calls him that. He believes everyone has voices... just some people have louder voices than others.
Sometimes Ethan has a hard time distinguishing between things that are real and things that are unreal. In that event he's extremely gullible. Any lie would plant right in his mind and grow from there. It's not a good idea to use too much sarcasm with Ethan. He will take it seriously. Ethan tends to meet everyone and think they are just being nice to his face, but talking about him behind his back. It's just a natural paranoia kind of thing. He can't stand thinking that everyone is doing that to him, but he really can't help it. Ethan often wishes he wasn't so weird, but those thoughts last for seconds before he is on to something else that seems more important.
Ethan does NOT like to be touched too much. He can take a little bit, but over the top is not good. The only time he can stand touching is when Bianca or Lex tell him to. He's wary of things being dirty or unclean and he needs for everything to be in order. Even though Ethan tends to push people away more often than not it takes a really strong person to be around him a lot.
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CAN YOU SEE MY EYES SHINING BRIGHT?
[/font][/color]THE HISTORY[/center]
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mom
renae corbin-baker, 38, photographer (deceased)
- lillian durmont-hamilton, 42, adoptive mother, professor at Harvard
dad[/color]
joseph arden baker , 39 , musician (deceased)
- alexander alan hamilton, 42, adoptive father, professor at Harvard
siblings[/color]
tobi ray baker , 3 , deceased
pets/other[/color] n/a
the secret life[/color]
Ethan was born into a simple family. His mother and father were very pleasant people who only wanted for their son to grow up and be the best man that he could possibly be. In his early years Ethan began to show signs of personality disorders. He was overactive, aggressive, and extremely jumpy as a child. His parents believed that he had ADD because of his inability to hold his attention on one thing for very long. As Ethan began to grow he adopted what his parents thought were "imaginary friends". He would talk to them and refer to them by name. Ethan would get offended if someone spoke ill of them or called them imaginary. Doctors told the Bakers that their son would more than likely grow out of it, that it was common for most children to make up imaginary friends to fill up holes in their lives that weren't being filled. By the time Ethan had turned seven and he was still referring to his three imaginary friends his parents worried even more.
The Bakers were stumped. They had no idea what could have possibly been a hole in their son's life. So they convinced him to go talk to a therapist. Ethan was never told that he was going to see a therapist and he couldn't understand why he had to sit and talk to a man who did nothing but nod and ask him questions. As Ethan got older his symptoms began to worsen. One moment Ethan would be playing happily with his toys or talking to someone normally before just falling silent and flat of emotions. By the age of twelve Ethan began to experience hallucinations. He would claim to his parents that there were animals in their yard or strange men in his bedroom. Ethan never seemed afraid of the hallucinations or seemed to think they'd hurt him. The Bakers didn't know what to do other than keep Ethan going to the therapist. During his sessions Ethan found it rather difficult to keep his thoughts on track. He would always tell therapist that it had to listen first because Bianca talked too loud.
Ethan was thirteen years old when he was officially diagnosed with schizophrenia, but this is another thing that his parents kept from him. They gave him his medication, telling him that it was simply vitamins to help him grow strong. Ethan believed them fully. Things quieted down for a while. His hallucinations happened less often and even the voices had quieted off some. Around that time was when Ethan's little brother was born. For a while they were a normal family. Ethan could go out in public without causing a scene and eventually his parents trusted him to look after his little brother for short periods of time, though never alone. Three long, enjoyable years went by with Ethan's illness under control. Even though Ethan had been doing well his parents still wanted to double check. The Bakers asked Ethan to take one last visit to the man who asked questions and nodded. Ethan grudgingly agreed.
It was at that session that Ethan's mental illness took a turn greater than anyone had ever anticipated. Halfway through the secretary interrupted, departing the sad news as best she could. His parents and little brother had been killed in a car accident. Ethan flipped. He screamed violently, his body shaking as if he couldn't control it. Ethan shouted things that didn't even sound like things he would say. After raging enough to push the couch over, break a coffee table, and nearly attacking his therapist Ethan fell into that flat, nearly emotionless state again. Plans were arranged for him to go to an orphanage, but that was changed. His therapist didn't think that kind of environment would be healthy for him. Instead, his therapist arranged for a family to adopt him that he trusted, a family that had experience with the mentally ill.
At first Ethan had a hard time accepting his new name and family. He often lashed out. They continued to give him his medication, but it wasn't the same to him anymore. Ethan would often hide the pills or flush them down the toilet. For a couple of years he got away with this. The Hamilton's had no idea that he was doing it. They just figured his medication had stopped working. That was until they found the pile of pills stashed between the cushions of the couch in his bedroom. For a year they forced Ethan to take them. Finally they felt like the illness was under control enough that they could give him a little room to walk. One thing that Ethan constantly complained about was his high school. He felt like everyone hated him, but they were being nice to his face and he felt like people were watching him too much.
The Hamiltons decided he was better suited for a more quality education. They arranged for him to attend a school in California. Ethan was starting to adapt to his new life, get used to things as they came at him. When his adoptive parents told him about his condition Ethan didn't believe them at first, but slowly he settled into the idea that he might actually have schizophrenia. When he went of to Concord he felt like he wanted to be able to control his illness, but as much as he tries he can't.
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WITH WORDS I THOUGHT I'D NEVER SPEAK
[/font][/color]THE END[/center]
[/color] brooke
name/alias
age[/color] 19
gender[/color] female
experience[/color] 8
where'd you find us?[/color] ? jj told me about you guys
other charcters?[/color] peter bergan walker
rp example[/color]
karma police, arrest this man
HE TALKS IN MATHS.HE BUZZES LIKE A FRIDGE.HE'S LIKE A DE-TUNED RADIO.
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Carson stared up at the house in wonder. This was the kind of house he wanted. He wanted one that no one would come to. Carson wanted to be the angry old man who bitched at kids for running on his grass and sits on the wrap around porch, staring at people as they walk by just to creep them out. He shook his head. That was the first time Carson had really ever aspired to be anything. Sure it wasn't much, but it was enough. Carson didn't really think he deserved success or anything like that. He was completely prepared to not really have a future. Maybe that was dramatic, but that was how he had to think. Sometimes Carson would think about ending it early like the night that Ashton had found him hanging by a guitar string that he had borrowed from his brother. That would have been a bug mistake and Carson knew that now. He was kind of glad that Ashton had stepped in, but at the same time he held a sort of grudge against him for stopping the inevitable.
Carson smirked when Ashton said that he was starting to think he was giving off feminine vibes. He shook his head, i think you're saved. Apparently I have childbearing hips. He said with a shrug. Carson really didn't care about who was considered the guy or the girl in their... thing. He wasn't into being classified. Hell, he wouldn't really care if they switched it around every now and then. The idea of him having childbearing hips was rather disturbing though. Carson was just glad that he didn't have female reproductive organs. Now that would get tense. Carson began to walk toward the house as Ashton began to speak again. He stopped suddenly, turning to face Ashton with a serious look on his face. Did you read my diary or something? He asked, raising an eyebrow. Carson was kidding, but he was sure that Ashton would catch that for sure. At least the question changed to something he couldn't really answer with sarcasm.
I found this place on one of those nights that I didn't come back to the room. Carson said as he walked up the front steps. Talked to a lady who said the house hadn't been lived in for at least twenty years. I spent the night in here. It's not nearly as creepy as it looks. He added. Carson at least didn't think it was that creepy. Some people would automatically be afraid, but Carson felt like the house just kind of drew him in. Carson finally pushed open the door to the house and stepped in. I'm positive that no one will come in here. Better than some crowded restaurant. There was no electricity in the old house so Carson took his lighter out and lit one of the candles sitting on a mantle piece. He turned toward Ashton, the flame lighting up his face. Carson motioned toward the stairs, We'll be going upstairs. About two flights to get where we're going.
Carson shrugged as he moved toward the base of the stairs. The house isn't the surprise. He said finally. It really wasn't. There was so much more to it than that. Carson took out his cell phone once more to check the weather again. Good. The storm was getting closer. Carson took his time moving up the stairs. He had a candle and a bag filled with stuff so he wasn't about to cause himself to trip up. Carson reached the top of the first flight. The steps were creaky, but not so much that it felt like they would fall in. It just felt more like the house hadn't been properly maintained in twenty years. There was dust and cobwebs all over the place. Carson tried to over look that when he came to the house though. Where he and Ashton were going there would be no need to worry about dust or cobwebs.
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for a minute there i lost myself
THIS IS WHAT YOU GET.THIS IS WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU MESS WITH US.
722 - ashton! - karma police, radiohead - I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED
template by brooke from caution
for a minute there i lost myself
THIS IS WHAT YOU GET.THIS IS WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU MESS WITH US.
722 - ashton! - karma police, radiohead - I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED
template by brooke from caution
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