Post by ashton cole johnson on Jan 28, 2010 20:50:18 GMT -5
ASHTON COLE JOHNSON
HONEY IF YOU STAY, I'LL BE FORGIVEN
[/font][/color]THE CHARACTER[/center]
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character full name Ashton Cole Johnson
nicknames Ash though if you call him that he will hurt you
age nineteen
grade senior
sex male
full time student or live-in? dorm
playby Ryan Ross
THESE BRIGHT LIGHTS ALWAYS BLINDED ME
[/font][/color]THE LOOKS[/center]
[/color] american
heritage
height[/color] 5'11"
weight[/color] 103 lbs.
eyes[/color] large honey brown eyes. They are not very warm usually conveying a cold unreadable look
hair[/color] longish shortish dark brown hair thats usually he straightens though when he doesnt it curls a bit at the ends.
dressing style[/color] He wears a mix of t-shirts and jeans to dressy kind of clothes. Hes always wearinga cabby hat when hes not inside for the most part, its like a helmet to him, his own little thing. He used to have plugs in his ears but he took them out, otherwise he has no other piercings. He does have a couple tattoos one on each wrist. One says 'thin as a dime' the other says 'mad as a hatter'
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I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING
[/font][/color]THE PERSONALITY[/center]
[/color] Giving his opinions Sarcasm
likes
Pot (sort of hes recovering) Riling people up Music writing Drawing Putting
things in peoples heads Pointing things out, making people truly look at them-
selves Cheetos Raisinettes Movies Poetry
dislikes[/color] Ditzy people People who pretend
to be ditsy for attention Feeling like he needs to lean on someone Talking
about himself Being alone (though he comes off acting as if thats what he
wants for the most part) People who like to push their beliefs on him Being
in his state Talking on the phone Pointless things Being Proved wrong Feeling
unsure Being out of control of his actions Not understanding his feelings
change
fears[/color] Himself - He doesnt know much about himself and his blackouts
His nightmares - hes afraid they are real. They are flashes of him for whenever he blacked out like when he was abducted and when he killed his parents
Emotions - he doesnt like getting emotionally attached to anyone or to lean on anyone
goals[/color] Getting out of there and being on his own
dirty little secret[/color]
almost everything about him.
His past about him blacking out and killing his parents
about him when he was younger being abducted for a couple years and being sexually abused
the fact that he has a personality disorder
His true feelings for the most part
His nightmares
His black outs
The fact his parents are really his parents he doesnt believe so
overall personality[/color]
Ashton isnt the most easy going guy. In fact he is really hard to get along with and most of the time you either find yourself fighting with him or just avoiding him. He likes to say things to get to people, he likes to pose questions to make people think, keep their minds open to every possibility, mostly the bad ones. Ashton tends to be really moody too. One minute he can be just generally assholey but then the next hes like insanely assholey. He likes to keep to himself too and he trusts no one. He really feels like everyone has something behind everything they say or do. Ashton doesnt take too well to compliments and he has a tendency to start saying something and then think better of it and back out claiming its nothing. He just has a really hard time voicing what he really wants or anything like that. Ashton really does not like talking about himself and he tends to be really sarcastic about things. He absolutely hates showing weaknesses.
Ashton has a bit of OCD. He can not stand things that arent clean and his room is like so clean you feel like just standing in the middle of the room will mess it up. Before he leaves he always unplugs all electrical things and he puts a piece of paper int he door so he can tell if anyones been in it or not. Hes extremely paranoid. Ashton hates big crowds and he doesnt really like clubs all that much, though sometimes he'll go to them just to get free drugs or something. He just cant stand to be in places like that cause people there he never knows how disgusting they are or what they might have and there is never any room to breath.. or move. He hates body contact and he is definitely not big on PDA. Ashton has never actually ever been happy before that he can remember.
He does tend to be a possessive person. He does not like sharing, at all. He can be very intense about things even if he tries to pretend hes not. Ashton is definitely not one you want to get into it with because he will always find a way to hit your weakest points. Sometimes he doesnt realize he's doing it, its just natural for him, but when he is trying, it can be bad. Ashton can be really awkward to talk to depending on the topic or who hes talking to. He is very opinionated and usually if you get him going on something he just goes, but for the most part hes an awkward talker.
Ashton has a tendency to never back down from a challenge. Even if the challenge goes against what he would normally do he will do it just so he can prove the person wrong. He can be very self conscious about things. Hes not the most confident person, in fact he pretty much sees everything thats wrong with him or if someone tells him something positive about him he will turn it into a negative somehow. He is kind of sensative about his skinniness too. He usually makes jokes about it in a sarcastic way, but really it bothers him a lot.
Ashton really hates when people do things he does. Like if hes in the chat and someone else doesnt have a picture up. He will constantly tell them to put one up because it will bug him to no end. He hates when people do what he does. He also hates stupid people. If he thinks you're stupid... theres probably know way of coming back from that and it usually takes him no time at all to decide what he thinks of you. Ashton tends to be very blunt about things and he swears quite a bit, especially when hes pissed.
Ashton isnt the best at flirting especially when hes thinking about it and means it. There are times when he does it to try and get a reaction out of someone, then he might be decent and really sometimes its hard to find out when hes being serious about something because he does tend to play games a lot. He will push a person as much as he can just to see how far he can get them. He also tends to doom himself a lot. He doesnt think he should have a lot of things so if things are going good for him he tends to sabotage them without thinking about it.
He is probably one of the least open people around. You can know him for many years, even be his friend, which would be unlikely really, and you will probably never really know anything about him. Obvious things maybe, but not important things and he is really hard to read. Ashton does drink, though hes more into getting high then drinking, but he usually drinks when hes high and usually those are the times you will have the best luck with him being friendly. Hes really talkative and ... tends to actually get touchy when hes like that. He rarely ever remembers things in the morning, which for him he doesnt like which is why he tries to stay inside when hes doing this, but sometimes, because when you're fucked up you dont just sit around.
Ashton does have somewhat of an anger problem. Usually he uses biting words, but a lot of the times he tends to get physical and its not always because someone pissed him off. It could just be because he is pissed at himself and needs physical pain, sometimes it helps him deal with things. Deal with himself. Pain thats what he knows. Ashton also has some.. weird ideals. Even though he pushes anything his parents said to him out, theres still some things that seemed to have stuck to him and so he has some weird thoughts about how things should be.
Ashton does have a split personality and during certain times it will come out. Its not as prominent as it was when he was younger. It was the result of what happened to him as a child and when he got home the things his parents did to 'cleanse' him as well. If hes feeling like he cant handle something, his other side will come out to 'protect' him. Ashton rarely ever realizes when this happens he just thinks hes blacked out or hes forgotten anything like that. His other side knows all about what happens when ashton is there cause hes always lurking just beyond the surface to make sure he'll be okay.
Ashton is very resourceful. He knows where to look, what to look for, and he pays attention. He tends to lurk on the chat and he is constantly listening to things around him so dont be surprised if he knows more about you when you have never met him before, or have only talked to him once or twice. Ashton is also into music, he can play the guitar and bass and even the piano, though he doesnt. Rarely will you find him playing if ever and he definitely will not do it in front of people. He doesnt think he plays well at all, but thats not why he doesnt play. He writes too, sometimes lyrics, sometimes not, but he rarely ever looks at what he writes so really he never knows unless he does decided to look. He can draw as well.
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CAN YOU SEE MY EYES SHINING BRIGHT?
[/font][/color]THE HISTORY[/center]
[/color] Judith - 42
mom
dad[/color] Ander-45
siblings[/color] n/a
pets/other[/color] UNCLE Jack - 45
the secret life[/color]
Ashtons parents were very religious, they really had their own religious intensity about them and they dealt with things how they thought they should be dealt with. If Ashton acted up or got out of line, his parents did anything they though they needed to do to set him on the right track. Even going to extremes was acceptable to them. When Ashton was four he was abducted from his front yard. Of course if he he hadnt been abducted his parents would have punished him for even going near a stranger regardless of whether it was his fault or not.
During that time Ashton was subjected to sexual abuse. The people put it in his head that his parents didnt want him, that he had been a bad child and told them to come and take him away. They told him lots of things and told him that if anyone asked that he was suppose to stay silent. Children should be seen not heard and besides no one wanted to listen to a little kid. No one believed little kids cause all kids lied. It didnt matter anyway, Ashton never remembered what happened, he usually blacked out and woke up later.
Ashton drew into himself. He felt bad. He didnt know what was going on didnt know what to do so he did what he was told not wanting to anger them. It was a couple years later that something changed. The people who abducted him were anxious and antsy and they bundled him him up without a word. They took him to a grocery store and just left him. Told him never to say a word about them and that if he stayed there someone would come. Said they wanted nothing to do with him anymore.
It wasnt long before police were there saying something about a tip they got and they would reunite him with his family in just a little bit. They had questions and tests to run. It felt like forever but finally he was reunited with his parents. It felt strange, he just felt like he was with new people, he didnt know these ones. It had been nearly three years almost and to a little kid it was a life time. Besides these were the parents that hadnt wanted him. Or maybe these were new parents, he didnt know he was a little kid and no one wanted to listen to them. So he just did as was told again.
His parents freaked out though and everyday for a month they stripped him down and scrubbed him clean, made him bathe in a tub of hot water. It was so bad his skin reddened nearly instantly but after a little while of sitting in it, it started to feel better. They burned his clothes that hed come home in. Every night they would make him stand in the corner and read aloud from the bible. There were times too if he said or did something they didnt approve of.. or even if he didnt fully eat the 'food of jesus' that they would actually flog him. They liked to do a lot of things from the bible, anything that was considered punishment or things that would 'save' his soul. They ended up stopping the floggings though after the neighbors finally called the cops. Theyd gotten him particularly bad that night and hed screamed as much as he had tried not to and when the police showed up they explained that ever since the abduction hes really been acting out. They said they're trying to up his visits with the shrink. Because they were known around the community as upstanding people the police didnt question.
They told him that god had punished him for the things they didnt know about that was why hed been kidnapped. They said anything that happened was his punishment and now he needed to work hard to gain the lords forgiveness and as long as he was good the lord would have mercy on his soul.
Ashton was a good kid, he went to school and came home. He did all that he was told but theres always a period when a kid starts to rebel when he started to get smart and realize all the fear his parents had put into him about god and hell was all bullshit. The first time he smoked hed was 12, the first time he tried beer he was 14 and the first time he tried drugs was when he was drunk off of four beers and it was his fifteenth birthday. Hed told his mother he was a sleep over with a friend from church. They were 'camping'. She knew this kid and his parents and thought that they were one of the more upstanding people at their church so she didnt question.
Ashton managed to keep his 'sins' under the radar of his parents though his parents would randomly perform cleansing rituals on him to make sure that he wasnt doing anything in his room like masterbating or anything of the sort. Besides they thought he was still being dammed for the things that happened to him while he was gone. Hed never told anyone but his parents said that they knew what happened to kids when they were abducted. That was why god had done it to him. It was a drastic measure but obviously needed to be done so he would be set back on track.
His parents were nuts. The last act that ultimately sent Ashton on the road to Calloway was when his parents were gone. They said they would be gone for two days, something they had to do. Honestly Ashton had stopped listening to them, having only heard that they would be gone for two days. After they had left Ashton, being bored, invited one of his friends over. His name was andy, they hung out a lot after school. Andy had actually been the one that was helping him quit doing drugs, and introduced him to music, teaching him to play all that he knew. Ashton was a fast learner, a natural when it came to music. Ashton had actually been doing well which was good because Ashton didnt really have any friends. Maybe one or two but they werent real friends just the kids that he got high with or drank with. He'd always been the kid the other kids picked on especially since they all knew about his abductions. Their parents had warned them to stay away from him. His parents were ignorant thinking that god and anyone who believed in him and attended the church would always be the ones he could rely on. Clearly they didnt know how jerky the kids were when parents werent around.
So when andy came to school a couple years before and took an interest in the loner, ashton had told him to fuck off many times, but it never seemed to phase andy. One day ashton finally said yes, Ashton surprised himself. Even when andy decided to turn Ashtons life around, something about andy made Ashton listen even when he wanted to push him away. So many little things about andy caught ashtons attention but he still just couldnt put his finger on it. Andy was the one that got him his first guitar, shortly after they he had started teaching him. He noticed Ashton writing a poem one day. He was really good with words. Ashton had been pretty guarded about it but of course andy managed to coax him into showing him. Andy knew then that ashton needed to get into music. Thought he was brilliant and insisted he let him teach him. Ashton was yet again surprised with how much he actually got into it.
It wasnt until about a month before the incident that Ashton realized what it was about Andy that drew him to him. He liked andy, actually liked andy. This was a shock in itself since andy was a boy and that was definitely not acceptable. Ashton tried to ignore it, but so many things, so many little things like glances, movements, touches... they did things to him. Ashton never acted on them, never said anything and Andy never acted differently. Ashton figured it was all in his head so he just dealt with it. Andy was a good friend though, probably the only one worth trusting.
His parents were going out for the weekend wouldnt be back until sunday. This would be the first weekend that they had finally let Ashton stay home alone. On this particular day though, something happened. After his parents had left, Ashton, bored, called Andy over. They were hanging around, playing a board game. Ashton decided it would be cool to have a couple drinks since his parents were gone and ... why not really? Andy agreed. They were pretty tipsy, nearly drunk when it happened. It started with a small touch, a hand on a leg, then it turned to pulling and soon they were making out on the floor, they had shirts off and pants unzipped, but not down, when his parents walked in. Apparently they had forgotten something and just had to come back to get it.
His parents hit the roof, of course. He'd never heard his mother yell so loudly. His father had grabbed them both and even Andy was scared for his life. His dad shook them till Ashton thought he was going to pass out. His mother grabbed the bible and motioned for his dad to bring them into the bathroom as she filled the tub with water. It was so hot ashton could see the steam rising from it. She had grabbed the large cross from the wall. She pulled the last of his clothes off and made him get into the water. She put the cross into the water as well before she grabbed the back of his hair and pushed his face into the water.
Ashton was panicking. His face felt like it was on fire, the hot water burning and he thought his mother was going to drown him. He could hear Andy trying to talk common sense into them, but they werent listening. It was as if they had gone crazy. At one point when his face was raised up he saw his father standing there with a large knife. He couldnt see andy anymore but he heard a loud noise and could tell they were wrestling. Next thing he heard was a loud thunk against the tub and the water started to stain red. He started to panic again and his father had to hold him down. Ashton isnt a big guy, so it was almost to easy for him. He had strength though from his adrenaline and when he heard his mother say something about bleeding him a little to cleanse himself in his own sinned blood, ashton knew there was no doubt in his mind that his parents were seriously crazy. His dad grabbed his hand and held it down as his mother sliced across his palm and then his other murmuring about the places that Jesus was nailed to the cross. He caught a glimpse of Andys lifeless form pushed out of the way.
The water was quickly changing from the pink to red as his blood added to it, flowing from the cuts. He was kicking so much, but they still managed to get him, not the exact spots, but his mother said it was okay, that wasnt the important part. She said that she must shed him of his tools since he had used them in sin and would now suffer unable to use it again nor would he be able to spread his sinful seed amongst humanity. When Ashton realized her intentions were to rid him of his penis he seemed to snap.
Ashton really couldnt tell you what happened. To ashton he had blacked out. All that he remembered was waking up in his bed his sheets covered in blood and his hands hurting. He was still naked his hair still to the point of partially dry but still damp in parts. His hands were wrapped in towels. When followed the trail of blood own to the bathroom and thats where he found his parents as well as andy, all dead dead. Ashton immediately called 911.
Ashton couldnt tell them anything and the scene had been cleaned of any fingerprints. They put Ashton through lie detectors and everything, but he still could not produce any kind of story other then what had happened. He did say that he had heard a voice, a stronger male voice just before he blacked out, but that was it. Ashton was the only suspect, there was no forced entry, no prints, no foot prints outside, nothing. Because they couldnt prove anything and Ashton passed the lie detectors and all the other tests, they couldnt hold him. His closest relative was his uncle so they sent him to live with him.
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WITH WORDS I THOUGHT I'D NEVER SPEAK
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[/color] (: JJ
name/alias
age[/color]24
gender[/color] female
experience[/color] 11
where'd you find us?[/color] ? advert
other charcters?[/color] Jack and Landon
rp example[/color]
see Jacks app:
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